You excitedly stood up and look at Amane who sits right next to you. You're about to ask him to go to the canteen together when suddenly a female voice appeared and push your sentence back to your throat.
"Amane, do you understand what Tsuchigomori-sensei explained? I don't quite get it..."
It's that girl again. She's been bugging your boyfriend for the whole week and it's kinda pissing you off. You let out a small sigh to keep your patience as you look for your other friends to eat lunch together.
"Nene-chan, Aoi, can I eat with you?" You drag your chair to their table.
"Sure! Let's eat together~♡" Aoi replied with a friendly smile.
Both of them always bring bentos, unlike you who always buy stuffs from the canteen. But fortunetly, the whole class think of you as a pet, they gladly give their food to you. The only thing you bring to school to consume everyday is a bottle of water.
"I made some cute omelettes today, y/n, have a bite! Say aaah." Nene feed you an omelette. It tastes so good, you forgot that you were in a bad mood just now.
"Nene-chan's cooking is the best!" You let out a long happy hum, immediately daydreaming of another taste.
"Eat some of my hamburg steak too, y/n!" Aoi feed you, don't wanna feel left out. "How is it?"
"Heavenly!"
"You can have some breads too." Akane appeared out of nowhere and hands you a bread.
"Thanks, Akane-kun!" You figured out he must be jealous that you got fed by Aoi. It will be bad if he snapped on you though, knowing his childhood friend favors you.
Now you have enough food to eat. You don't have to go to the canteen anymore. You have no problems for now. That is if... Your eyes quietly gaze to Amane who's still busy talking with that girl as you munch the bread. He keeps smiling at her, making you feel like something is burning in your chest. You can't help but pout a bit and bite harsher.
You don't wanna get mad at him actually. He's just being nice as a good person he is. You guys are dating to each other by choice and he always respects your boundaries. So you think it'll be pretty childish to get angry out of jealousy at this moment. You trust him a lot, but that girl–
"Hhh..." You closed your eyes and frown. Conflictedly thinking in your mind as you tell yourself to have more patience.
"Are you okay, y/n?" Nene asked you out of worry. "Is there anything that's troubling you?"
Aoi glance at Amane's table that is far across her and rest her cheek on her hand. "Oh my–"
Akane followed her gaze and joins in conversation. "Do you feel jealous that Yugi-kun keep talking to her these days? Just tell him that you feel bothered and he'll leave her. That's what I'll do if Aoi-chan ask me to."
"No need." Aoi replied him fast with a smile and made that guy cry again.
You giggled at their antics.
"I'm fine. I just... Feel... A lil..." lonely. You gaze up to the three of them and shake your head. "Never mind. It's fine."
You spend less and less time with Amane because of that girl. It's to the amount you start questioning yourself : who is his girlfriend actually?
You wanna spend more time with him, but lately it felt almost impossible to do it. It's already hard as it is in normal occurrence. And now this girl makes it more difficult for you. Amane friendliness makes her stick like a glue. You don't know how to take care of this. You can't tell him it's bad to be nice, aren't you–It'll make you feel toxic and possesive towards him. Furthermore, it's not like they are flirting with each other...
"Are you sure about that?" Nene carefully asked you.
You nodded your head weakly. "Hmm..."
This won't last forever right? Amane will miss you and in no time there will be a point where he will just reject that girl for you.
You're trying to keep being positive. Filling your head with mantras such as : You're his girlfriend. You should be more understanding. You're amazing. Yeah!
.....
"Amane."
"Amane."
"Amane."
Two weeks... Half of month... And this doesn't stop. You start to feel fury despite how much you tell yourself to calm down.
"Thanks again, Amane! See you later!" Finnaly that girl let him go once you guys reached the lockers.
"Y/n, I heard the bakery have a new type of chocolate bread. Wanna go there?" Amane smiled cluelessly at you.
Just how dense this guy could be?!
You, who's still pouting just hum to push down your anger. Giving him a low mumbled reply. "Yeah... Let's go..."
You unenthusiastically let him drag you by the hand. Keeping your head down to hide your expression. You don't want to speak much for the fear that you will snap at him somehow.
"Y/n? Are you okay?" Finnaly he decided to ask that.
You shook your head, no. The huge wave of emotions you tried to hide for the whole two weeks feels too hard to handle right now. You start to sob a bit, feeling like you wanna cry out of frustration.
"Wanna rest?" He bent down and tilt his head to see your face better.
"Hic–" You can't hold it anymore. Your tears broke out uncontrollably as you rush forward to hug him tight. "AMANEEE!"
"Wh-Wha?!" You caught him by suprise, but he immediately recropiate your hug, trying to reassure you. "Y/n, it's okay. It's okay. What's wrong? I don't see people bully you at school, your grades are good. Is it family problem?"
You're too choke up to reply when your heart is screaming : IT'S YOU, DUMMY. AMANE YOU DUMB HEAD.
Knowing that you won't answer soon, he tries to bring you somewhere less crowded. Now you both are hugging each other in an alley.
Your head is so messy with negative thoughts that keeps popping up like bubbles. What if he thought that you're weird for crying like this? What if he wants a break up if he heard the reason why you were so upset? What if he thinks you're inconciderate and then decided to leave you for that girl? What if he feels dissapointed with all of the thoughts you're having about him now?
"Shhh... Shhh... Everything will be fine." He keeps patting your back. What is exactly that will be fine???
As if he could read your mind, he desperately continue, "I promise it will be fine. I'll help you. It's okay to tell me. What's wrong?"
Or It's because he notice you keep parting your lips and close it tight again like you're doubting to confess the truth. Indeed you are. He's always so observant towards you. You knew that since the start. He loves you that much and that's why you never ever want to doubt him.
You love him so much too...
"I–I hate you..." You finnaly said that in the middle of sobs, still feeling tears spilling down through your cheeks. "I don't like it that you keep leaving me alone. Hic–I don't like it when you turn your gaze away from me. I don't like the sounds of your steps fading out. It made me feel lonely... I'm your girlfriend, but your eyes and your voice are given to someone else instead, you spent your time with that girl when I– When I wanna be with you too. Hic..."
Amane grew silent. His eyes are full with concern. You can see the reflection of yourself in those orbs despite how blurry it is. You just want to let everything out.
"I don't wanna be selfish. I don't wanna force you to be with me all the time. But my chest keeps feeling like it's burning inside. It hurts so much. I feel so restless and feeling like it's hard to breathe. I don't wanna feel like this... Yet I keep thinking to drag you away and hid you somewhere so I can have you all to myself. I–" You stopped when you realised what are you saying. "Wait, no–actually..."
Chu.
You stopped your sentence when you suddenly felt something warm landed on your forehead. It goes down to your eyelid, nose, cheek, and then to your lips. Those little kisses full of love accompanied by his gentle smile made your heart melts.
"Cute." He let go with a laugh.
Your mouth gapped wide open. "Why you–"
"So, in short, you're jealous of that classmate of ours that been stealing me away, hmm?" He grins teasingly. "Oh my, I didn't expect that you're actually gonna say that you want me all for yourself. That's bold~"
"Amane!" Your face fuming red. "You lil–"
You start punching him out of embarrassment. How could he just laugh it out like that? Doesn't he know how bad it felt for you???
He tries to defend and run, making you felt tired and stop as his smile grew large again. "I won't mind if you done anything in your head to me. You can tie me up and keep me in your room. I won't fight you~"
"Amane, stop teasing me!"
"I'm being serious!"
"Do you want me to bite you?!"
"You can do it! Go ahead, come here!" He extended both of his arms to you.
You bit your lips angrily and stomping your way towards him. You crashed yourself againts his chest as you burry your face in a hug. "You're so lucky that I love you so much."
"You won't bite me?"
"Later..." You replied lazily, rolling your eyes. It was an empty threat after all.
"Aww man."
"I want choco breads."
"We're on our way to the bakery."
"I love youuu."
You heard him chuckled. His eyes are still full of laughter it pissed you off. "I love you too. Next time, tell me when you want to hid me in a room."
"AMANE!"
After that day, he doesn't talk to that girl as often anymore. He spend a lot of time with you instead to pay back all those times he made you felt lonely. He teased you from time to time and it annoys you to the core, but it never felt better after all those weeks you spend being jealous.
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